The end to a wonderful day. . .

A clean house

Christmas decorations up and beautiful

A night full of the endless river of .............................. dog piss

In the living room, in his bed, side of the bed, back in the living room, through the hallway, in the kitchen, and once again at the foot of the bed.

I can understand the first time and maybe the second, but when i wake up at five in the morning to the dog peeing at the foot of the bed, i don't get that. I don't get why he would pee in his own bed, i don't get why he would insist in peeing in his happy place, i just don't get it.

But we made it through the night, to wake up bright and early for the first day back at my full time job in five days, not very happy due to the lack of sleep from having to deal with the dog's desire to urinate everywhere.

But the day went by, and we made it through.

A-RAE

Looking forward, and holding on. . . .

Life is hectic, life is crazy, life is good, life just is. . .

Weeks ago i get a call at work from the wonderful lady that i share my life with, and she is excited (i think, it was a bit confusing) She was asked to become a Christmas Warrior for a little girl in the Ukraine who has down syndrome and mild CP, she was presented with the opportunity to raise money for this little girl to get adopted.

This beautiful lady that i spend my life with proceeded to ask if it would be a good idea, if she should do it, i knowing how much she already has on her plate became very uneasy about saying yes, but i agreed. Followed by me agreeing was her saying she wants me to do it with her, now i'm all about doing what she likes and supporting her however i can, but i wasn't sure about the help, these things get stressful and can put a strain on a relationship, and it has.

It's nothing to extreme but it's so frustrating, she is such an independent person that i don't know where the boundaries are, where i should step in and where i should step back, what i can do and what she is doing. So i have stood back most of the way, but i do want to help. I am and will be here no matter what she asks me to do for it.

We are looking for items for our silent auction that will be held December 16th at harmony cafe in down town appleton, and we are also looking for sponsors as well.

We will do what it takes, i have no doubt in the world that we will accomplish everything we have set our minds to do.

This may be difficult and it may be hard but we will do it, we are already on our way, and no matter how difficult this gets, it may just be a blessing in disquise, it may test us, stress us out, and have us on the brink of who knows what but it will allow us as a couple to blossom and grow, and understand eachother!!!!!


A-RAE

I just didn't know!!!!

My whole ides to blog today was to blog about my dislikes in certain situations, and jealousy, and how my jealousy is perceived, but quite honestly i just can't, at least not right now. So instead i will blog about the things i have said, or haven't said, and things you shouldn't say when someone tells you they love you!!!!!


What i have said:

 I love you!

1. I know

I love you!

2. That's good


What i haven't said but shouldn't

I love you!

3.That's Sweeet!

I love you!

4. Great

I love you!

5. we need to talk

I love you

6. I'm sorry


These are just a few, leave me a comment and tell me what you think shouldn't be said when someone tells you they love you!!!!!!!!

A-RAE

Good Choice. . .

I FINISHED MY AFGHAN!!!!!!


Two legs so i can walk with you
Two ears so i can hear the truth,
Two arms that i can wrap you in,
Two eyes that i can see you with.

Ten fingers to lace in your hand,
Ten toes to dig with you into the sand,

 One stomach for butterfly's when you call,
One heart to love you through it all.


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When your crabby when your happy when your emotions are up and down,
You can smile you can laugh you can even wear a frown.
I will be beside you when the sunshine fades away,
Or through the hottest weather, or the coldest day.

You are my everything my breath of fresh air,
You are amazing, your loving, you care.
I love everything about you, your smile your charm,
When your around i don't feel i can be in harm.

I couldn't express enough how i truely feel,
Just know forever this love is real.
True love, In love, Love of my life.
One day we will have a baby, one day you'll be my wife.

Until then this is good, i take that back this is great,
We were brought together, it's a wonderful fate.
Baby, Sweet heart, My Pretty lady listen here,
I LOVE YOU! and i will every second, minute, week, month, year!


A-RAE

Reassurance

You can never say you love me enough,
Every time you say it, it feels like the first.
I need to hear it all the time, i need to know it always.

I am unsure, i am scared, I am in love,
I am not your enemy, i am not against you.
I am your friend and your partner.

I am insecure with things, I am always on your side,
I will help you with everything, i want to be involved.
I need to know you want me involved and you don't want to do it yourself.

I'm afraid you don't need me, or want me,
but i know you do.
You are not alone though.

I need to hear all the things, the things that i do
that give you butterflies.
All the reasons that you love me.

The reason's i make you laugh, why it's me you want
when you cry.
I want to know everything you think about us.

I want to know what i do that you love, and not
everything,
But the specifics of the everything.

I need to know it's about us, not just you
and i do know this but more often
then not i want to hear it.

I want alot of things and some,
I can't believe i would even ask,
But i did, and here it is!

I want to know all about the love you hold
for me, and for us.
And why you want to grow old with me.

Why you want to start a family with me,
why you want to be my family.
I want to know everything.

And one day when you get the chance,
I will be waiting, open arms and open ears.
I will listen, and then. . .

Then i will tell you all i believe, all that i think,
All that i love about you, about us.


You are my love, the love of my life.
I will grow old with you, I will have a family with you.
I will spend the rest of my life with you.

You are beautiful, and I love you!!!!

A-RAE