GIRLS!!!!

Yesterday due to a minor scare, and a little curiousity from the doctor and ourselves, we took a quick peek while doing a quick ultrasound and saw nothing. . . Nothing between the legs that is. We are only seventeen weeks along right now and our definite scan isn't for another four weeks, but from what we have seen or i should say what we haven't seen is we are going to be having a GIRL!!!

A beautiful baby GIRL!!!

What a world this is, what an amazing feeling!!!

A-RAE

Family Bloggers.......

So today as i sit in my sisters house watching my amazing niece and nephew i realize, the extent to a family of bloggers. . .

I thought it was only CJ and myself that blogged, ok so i don't blog nearly as often as i should but hey i would if i could. However i found out while looking at my followers that aside from, Dont lick the Ferrets, Dont lick the Rainbow, Rainbow Queer, Journey of the Rainbow, LittleMissE, and The traveling afghan project (between just me and CJ, mostly CJ) That my sister has joined the blogging community.

My sister is a blogger, how exciting is that, now i have to stop saying stuff about her on here (just kidding sis i don't do that i promise) the title of it is A New Start for Mom, we will have to set her up on blogger so she can do it right because currently she is only doing it through facebook, but hey she's doing it. I'm so excited!!

However the down fall is that she has been blogging since march and didn't inform us of this and well she hasn't informed us of this still. I will have to have a talk with her that's for sure. . . Welcome to the FAMILY OF BLOGGERS we got a bunch, check them out!!!!

A-RAE

Down on my Knee. . .

My love, myself, Grignon Park, Mentos (fruit flavored of course), white and orange tic tac's, my heart and soul in a red leather ring box, and my determination to make her my Fiancee!

An Amazing dinner, multiple questions, long talk, much love, we sat together, and as frisbee's flew over head, and my heart raced, i got up moved in front of her, got down on one knee, opened the ring box covered in sweat from my nervous palms, and i asked her "Will you Marry Me?"

Many questions, a full smile, water filled eyes, and asking her to just answer the question, she said YES!!!

I knew from the moment i got my chance with her that she was the one i would spend the rest of my life with. She is beautiful, funny, smart, and more then i ever imagined i would find in a woman. She was an amazing girlfriend, but finally she is now the best damn fiancee i could have ever asked for.

From day one i vowed myself to her, faithful, true, loving, honest, and always, and from then until now it has never changed and will never.

Come on now, WHO DOESN'T WANT TO PUT A RING ON THE FINGER THERE WRAPPED AROUND?

I am happy, in love, and excited for our always together, and let me be the one to say, I HAVE DAMN GOOD TASTE IN JEWELRY! Bonus of being a lesbian is that woman know what woman like. I GOT LUCKY THOUGH, I ALSO HAVE FANTASTIC TASTE IN WOMAN, I MEAN HAVE YOU SEEN HER, THAT'S RIGHT, COMMENCE JEALOUSY NOW!!

A-RAE

Mommy To Be

Obviously the baby was planned, but it was still definitely a surprise, we never expected it to happen so quickly but none the less were just as excited if not more that it has.

For me, this is my first child, my first baby, and my first experience with this entire thing, and i am so ready, it's just absolutely amazing, breath taking.

Each day we read in our baby journal about the progress of Stubby Chedda and each day i'm just amazed, it's so overwhelming, but so awesome.

I love this feeling and i'm ready to be apart of the mom world.

I didn't have two parents growing up, i had my mom, only my mom until i was nine, i don't want my child to ever not have both there parents planning large roles in there life, and that's why i knew when we started planning and started to try that this was right because i know that no matter what it is or what happens we will work it out and we will raise our children together. I'm so in love with her, and glad we have begun a big step of starting our lives together.

A-Rae

Just A Few Reasons

As you lay beside me, your arms wrapped tight around,
And as I drift fast asleep, to your breath so soft and sound!
As you hold me closely, as the tears run down my cheeks,
And as I slowly lose the pain, fore you make my body weak!

As you whisper gently, easing worries, and my fears,
And as you slowly touch my lips, pulling me close and near!
As you hold my hand, fingers perfectly intertwinned,
And as you talk me through things, soothing my worried mind!

As you laugh at my impressions, making ones up of your own,
And as you fully understand, all my sighs and moans!
As you understand me, as exotic, and extreme,
And you let me wonder all my goals and my dreams!

As you keep me stable, when i come so close to fall,
And as you keep me flying, soaring high and tall!
As you wave your hand to me, pinky, pointer, thumb,
And you stand with me for all the years to come!

As you feel against me, as close as we can be,
And as we spend our lives together, forever in love you see!
As I tell you every day, I am so in love with you,
I want to spend my life with you forever through and through!

This poem could keep on going, the list would never end
Fore every day is a new reason, my lover, partner and best Friend!

A-Rae

Yay Toast!!!

Valentine's Day!!!! A hallmark holiday like no other!

I loved it, it wasn't huge it was extravagant, but it was the best Valentine's Day I could have imagined (aside from not finding my heart shaped gobstoppers)!

We did a little of this, a little of that, got out shopping, went and looked at rings at our local jewelry stores, watched movies, crocheted, got our tarot cards read, and spent a lovely night together, with the wonderful bubba, and the very homolicious homo.

It was special because it was us, we were together, we made it special!

I couldn't be happier with whom i am spending the rest of my life with, she is my everything, my world, and my future!

No matter how hard life gets, it will always be worth it as long as she is by my side!

It was a lovely day, a lovely night, with a more then lovely pretty lady!

I LOVE YOU, PRETTY LADY!

A-RAE

Holding onto Nothing

Friendships come friendships go.

Is this easy, absolutely not.

How do you filter through the mess of good and bad?

You have to go with the flow and let what happens happen!

People take advantage and don't consider your feelings, they hurt you because of selfish decisions and choices they make, That is not a friendship, that is a user, someone who uses you to get what they want and when the time comes and you can no longer provide that ability to provide, then again this "friend" will walk away without a thought.

This SUCKS!

Mainly you have to hold your own, know when to say yeah sure no problem and when you have to finally just give up with it and say no, because your decision doesn't just effect you,it affects others around you, and given what they want it just encourages them to continue to do it because you do give in.

I am the first to say yes, but as soon as it crosses the line i will be the first to say no. I can hold my own, but i hate watching others being taken advantage of, it irritates me that people use others, i just think its ridiculous.

I have been irritable lately, but this is a big reason why, i have seen people getting taken advantage of lately and it saddens me.

Simple thoughts for the day!!

A-RAE